My younger son, about to turn 5yrs, had his physical therapy assessment today. According to the testing he
not only has the mind of a 2-3yr old but he only has the gross motor
skills of about a 1-2yr old. It's just frustrating, he tries so hard and
we try so hard yet he's still so far behind. It's got me really worried
about starting him in kindy this coming year, i'm really thinking we
should hold him out a year until he's caught up a bit more but my husband
insists we let him start this year.
I just want to cry for
him, we do everything we can yet it seems it's never enough to really
help him. He's been in speech for over 6 months with very little
advancement to show for it, his OT has helped a bit but not a whole lot
yet and he starts PT next Monday. I'm just so worried about his future
and how difficult it will be for him to stay caught up enough.
I guess the worst for me is that it's all my fault, they told us at
13wks that he'd have major issues due to the constant blood loss and
that we should end it, but i refused. So every new problem that crops up
is another hit, that i did this to him, i let this happen, i made this
choice and now he's paying the price for it. All i can do is hope that
when he grows up and finds out, as he will from some family member or
another, that he won't hate me.