Kinda sad and kinda happy. This is my hot topic...not your average Christian...
My sister is coming here finally on Thursday. Granted it's for a Beth Moore conference, which isn't horrible, she's pretty funny, but I have my personal space I don't like invaded, and am not a fan of group hand holding prayer stuff. I have my personal space and like it. A lot. However, my mom bought tickets, booked the hotel, and I'm going. My sis lives in Vegas. They are stationed at Nellis. It's a hellhole. For real. I miss her sooooo much and my twin niece and nephew,, I haven't seen her in over a year, that sucks. I want them to get stationed here badly. Her husband is in the medical field. Mine is intell.
But she is comming. That's the payoff of me having to sit through whatever this will be. I'm a Christain, but I'm not your stereotypical Christian. I'm pretty standoffish, don't like my personal space invaded, and absolutely hate touching and group hand holding prayer. My mom and sis are opposite of me. Ps. Don't hug me unless I go to hug you. I hate it. A lot.
I'm fearing the worst. I told my mom. I am grateful you put this together and paid for it, I want to see Ash, but I cannot deal with crazy people stuff. I will walk out. She laughed and told me to be open minded. Ummm okay. What does THAT mean?
I can guarantee I'm not going to be open minded about people invading my personal space. I can guarantee I will want to go to the Tiki bar Friday night and probably be hung over the next morning in the seminar. Will I be judged? I don't know and honestly, I don't care, but I worry what mom and my sister will think.
I get no time to myself. My husband is gone half the year every year and I do nothing but be "mom". No outings, no mom or girls night out. It's just me. I never get to be "Des". Ever.
This weekend I should be able to be me. I am a Christain woman who likes to let loose, drink, be silly, etc. it's how I blow off steam other than cafemom. Lol However, I don't feel comfortable doing it in this setting, and I resent it.
how would you deal with this?
Im not going to miss seeing my sister. Isn't happening. But I don't want to fake it this weekend either. I want to be me and be accepted.
What would you do?
Dinner before Beth Moore. ;)