About to lose control....

I am so sorry you've been experiencing such difficult circumstances and so much emotional pain. You've received some great advice so far, but I'd like to add that through Focus on the Family, an organization I work for, you can speak to a licensed caring Christian counselor at no cost to you. They'll take time to listen, give advice and can direct you to resources that could be very helpful to you in your present situation. Just call 1-855-771-HELP (4357) Monday through Friday between 6:00 a.m. and 8:00 p.m. Mountain time.

I pray that you will receive the comfort, peace and advice you need. HUGS AND GOD BLESS!!

Part of what you are experiencing is hormones adjusting. Part is simply lack of sleep. Part is changes in your life, which are always stressful, good or bad.  You'll soon figure out how to take care of both yourself and your son. Congratulations on your new baby.

 I'm so sorry you're feeling overwhelmed. Is there any way your aunt could watch the baby and let you have an hour or two to yourself?

You need to get more sleep --sleep when your baby sleeps, 100% of the time.

And you need to get more help. Ask for it, people love to feel helpful in real ways.

And YOU need to determine YOUR priorities.

For example: f your aunt wants to see vacuumed carpets when she visits, she can see to it.

A great deal of the 'stuff' that 'needs' to be done on a daily basis does not, in fact, 'need' to be done at all.

I think this is a really, really good way to get PPD.

The aunt can vacuum, wash dishes, run errands and make lunch for mom... only mom can mother the baby.

Feeling replaceable is a HUGE part of post-partum depression. No one can be this child's mother except her mother --and the mother matters to the baby.

Quoting bamababe1975:

 I'm so sorry you're feeling overwhelmed. Is there any way your aunt could watch the baby and let you have an hour or two to yourself?

Trust me everyone has felt this way one time or another. I don't know about everyone but being a new mother was really scary for me and I was always afraid of doing something wrong. Maybe you can find a local moms group for support?

Just take it easy honey. You just gave birth.
Good job getting yourself away from an abuser. You will know what to do. Relax. Hugs sweetie.

ask the dr for something if its still an issue sounds like postpartum??how is it now?/

Hey......relax dont miss the best moments on sstuff thats gonna be there tom.the next day,the next day.....put your pjs on and snuggle with that baby.bond with him sleep when he sleeps please...i ruined it the first time doing thd same thing.by the secound i said ooohh screw the world we are just gonna snuggle and relax,yxou will have a much calmer baby if ur tense and stressed uugghh thats the baby u will have everyday is a new day for him.the carpet,please....