I apologize if this is long and disjointed.
I was on anti-depressants for anxiety. I've been on 3 different ones, and the side effects were too much and I had to stop taking them. The Dr. recently gave me a new one that I am going to try but I have to wait until DH is home. I don't know what the effect is going to be that first day, I'm not going to make him take a day off or anything just start on a weekend.
I am at the end of my rope with my husband. Since he has gotten this new job he has been under a lot of stress which means he has been a royal asshole. He makes good $$ but it is so not worth dealing with him when he is like this.
It seems he is never available, he is always in meetings. THey are working on a project and getting close to the deadline. I get that. I do. However, our daughter had her big Dr. appt. I have been telling about for months, did he ask for it off? No. Did he act all surprised when it came up? Yup. She has this every 4 months, I tell him it's coming up and he says ok, then when it comes it's a hug fight. Every. Time. Usually he is able to get off and come with me but yesterday he couldsn't. They put my DD under so I usually put her under for the procedure so I need someone there in the backseat on the ride home incase she throws up or passes out. My friend came with me, luckily but i shouldn't have to go to my friends and my SIL to help me with things that are HIS and MY responsiblity, together. Not theirs.
Since quitting the anti-depressants (2 wks ago) my stomach has been messed up ect. Withdrawl symptoms. Anyway, anytime I get mad or feel wonky or whatever he says 'oh you need to start your pills, ect' it's is really PISSING ME OFF. NOt everything can be atributed to my pills. Gah! Some days the kids are just onery, some days I'm just tired because *I* got up in the middle of the night and I am with the kids all day. That has nothing to with pills. Last night I threw up because I choked on some pepto. I'm not a good pill taker, already having an upset stomache I just lost it when I choked. Sue me. It has nothing to do with withdrawl symptoms!!
I wear contacts and for the past couple days my eye has felt strained. Today I woke up and it hurts so bad! I'm wearing my glasses, I've put drops in it, but picking my son up from school was rough. I've called the eye dr. but he hasn't answered or called back. I called my DH to see if maybe he pick DS up from school but of course he is in meetings all day long and he can't. I accidently butt dialed him later and he calls back and tells me unless it is a 911 emergency he can't answer I just busted out in tears because I am in a lot of pain. He started to say someting and I said if you are going to say someting about taking my pills then I am hanging up. He said 'well you better hang up then'. So I did. The pain in my EYE has nothing to do with withdrawing from my meds!! NOTHING!!! Yeah I'm crying because it freakin' hurts and I have nobody to call and help me. I'm sick of having no support. None.
I don't wnat to have to call on my friend (as I only have 1 here) and my SIL (who I have a very strained relationship with) to help me all the freakin time! This is way worse then when he was in the military!
I am even seriously pondering getting a job and leaving him. I dont' know what else to do. I want him to quit his job or have some sort of balance. It never used to be like this.
**Formerly Keegansmama05** Loving Mama to Keegz & Nikki**