So DH and I are finally ready to start TTC. I think, hahaha.
What's really holding me back though, well, there are a few things, but right now what's on my mind is having the baby alone. He is military, so there's a good chance he won't be aroud when the baby's born. Nothing's planned, but that can change at any time and short of waiting until he's out, which will be WAY too late, we just have to deal with it if it happens. I also don't have any friends or family who are local. Or even that would be willing to come here and help.
I've looked into hiring a doula, but still - will I be able to drive while I'm in labor? How about drive home afterwards? Will I feel well enough to cook for myself immediately after I have the baby? What if I have complications and the baby doesn't, who will take care of it? Will it end up in foster care until I can? Those are the big things I'm thinking about. Just don't want to get myself in a situation I can't handle alone, ya know?