Please tell me that this is a normal feeling *eta*
My son is a month old. I EBF.
My son eats every 2 hours around the clock.
I love my son and I know how important bfing is and I wouldn't change it for anything in the world.
About a week ago, during the day, I would bf my son and then he would end up falling asleep on my boob.
so he doesn't get a full feeding but i don't wake him and i will put him down to let him sleep. 1/2 later he'll wake up and be hungry.
So......I changed it. He would fall asleep on my boob, not getting a full feeding and then i would try to wake him up. i would tickle his foot, rub his belly, play with him or lay him down and he wouldn't wake up.
or he'll feed, but won't get a full feeding and then he'll stop. he won't fall asleep but he'll smile at me and then just stay awake.
so my point i'm trying to get at it. i feel like he's constantly on my boob. it is starting to drive me crazy because i don't get any "me" time.
he use to sleep every 2 hours and now he doesn't. um.....well.....i should say, depending on whether or not he gets a full feeding. if he gets a full feeding then he'll sleep for 2 hours but if he doesn't get a full feeding then he'll sleep for about a 1/2 hour.
it starts to drive me crazy because i just want some time where i don't have to breastfeed for more than 2 hours. or just have some me time.
i'm having mixed feelings. i love, love bfing bc i know it's the best for my son but at the same time i don't like it bc i feel like he's attached to me all day and night long. i just want some time where i don't have to worry about breastfeeding.
i want some alone time. it's driving me crazy and i'm starting to show my frustration and my SO and I are starting to fight over it.
like last night i slammed something in the kitchen just because i was completely frustrated with feeling like my son is attached to my boob constantly. and my SO got upset with me bc i slammed something.
is this a normal feeling?
eta: please help me explain this to my SO. he says that he's trying to support me and try to understand what i'm going through but i don't know how to explain this to him.