And i'm going nuts. I feel like i can't enjoy one because the other is crying. I feel guilt because i had so much time with kayden, my first, and i don't have that with xander. And i feel so guilty because after Xander came, i was so wrapped up in the ever two hour feeding and exhaustion that i made kayden wait and self play. I wish i was two people. I want every individual moment and i feel like i'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off, the kids and the cleaning, bills and my husbands needs (not excessive just...a mans needs) I don't even think i've stopped reciting the grocery list because i beat myself up for forgetting drano. My bathroom needs to be redone, so do my floors, the dogs need to be washed and xander's birth needs to be paid for this month. I have white cabnets and they constantly look dirty. I'm just loosing it. It took me a week to remember to shave my legs. Any advice on how to NOT loose my mind?