I want to see if anyone might be able to give me some insight into what they think may be a factor in my recent behaviors regarding alchole. I've had issues in the past, before kids, with over drinking and I've been in my fair share of trouble because of it. I have been away from that lifestyle for a good four year, if not more and this past summer I started casually drinking. Well it has quickly gone from casual to outright abuse. My mind tells me I'm lacking something and using the alchole as an outlet but I am having trouble figuring out what it is I need or want that is cause me to behave this way. I don't have room for this nonsense in my life and who needs the hangover or guilt associated with drinking. I so frustrated with myself and I was thinking if I got some other opinions I might be able to put some pieces together and get myself out of this way before it gets out of hand again. I love my kids and family more than anything and I can't stand to think that my behaviors could hurt them ever .