Living with a man I've lost all feelings for.... Venting!
I moved in with my boyfriend back in August for the second time after losing a job and not being able to afford renting an apartment. We have alot of problems with children, primarily my daughter who hates him, and because of this and other issues, I have lost all feelings for him and don't want to be intimate with him anymore. I am totally not attracted to him anymore, physically, mentally, or emotionally, and I get repulsed and try to avoid his overtures at all times. He doesn't get it, and is in major denial. I've been so clear in actions and words that I don't want "nookie" anymore and make it like it's a physical problem rather than my repulsion but it's getting quite annoying when he gets to the "I'm so horny, please give me a BJ and I'll leave you alone. When I do attempt to get intimate, I just want him to do it fast, get it over with, and leave me alone. I wonder if I've turned cold and sexless, unable to achieve satisfaction/orgasm at all.
I'm trying to stay put, I pay him rent and help him financially. I can't buy a home until I raise my credit score and I am working on doing that. He is insanely jealous, insecure, untrusting, and thinks every man at work is going to attack me if I talk to them. He is a diabetic and sickly and when his sugar gets high he turns into the incredible hulk which has caused major problems! UGH!
I don't want to be disgusted with men altogether but I really do want to be on my own, independent again and just maybe date a little on a light basis, nothing serious. I'm not good with relationships. Was married once for 10 years, divorced now 8 years and this relationship is the 2nd most serious relationship I've had.
I guess I'm just venting, not sure what advice I'm looking for.. but I'd love to hear from anyone with similar stories or any advice about men like this. Thanks.