I know a lot of women have been in the position where they are pregnant and have a friend who is also expecting and the friend loses the child. This has happened to me once with my first child and I did a pretty decent job of helping my friend grieve but this time it is my sister and within my healthy 30 week so far pregnancy my sister has been overjoyed and crushed twice by miscarriage. I want even more to be able to take her pain away and to fix this problem that of course I have no power to fix. I don't understand why she is having trouble while there are so many dead beats that have no trouble. I sometimes even get mad that I can so easily make a life and others have such hard times. I beat myself up even though I am so greatful that I can have a healthy child while other people have so much trouble. I am also obsessing about my baby and if she is ok. I can't even enjoy this pregnancy anymore because I am so afraid of losing her. I sometimes question how I am one of the lucky ones.