Hey everybody, I'm Ashley, and I'm new to this group.
I had just recently lost my brother in law to suicide this passed Wednesday, which is also my father-in-laws birthday and I'm not entirely sure how to cope with the feelings of being up and down each day. he was never active in his family which at times, I really couldn't blame him. But the last year and a half he has been super close to everybody after his divorce had finalized and now he is just gone. Like that. It was only 3 weekd ago, he was sitting with us all in our livingroom eating my father-in-laws favorite dish I make, laughing and playing apples to apples and now this. My poor husband is just beside himself, and I'm doing everything I can in my power to make sure he is doing okay, even though in reality he's not 'okay' he's my husband and he needs me, I want to be his rock. I am human though and am struggling with this as well.
Anyways, if any of you have lost somebody you had become close to, or were close to from the beginning, especially to suicide how did you get through it? I've never lost anybody before. So I am a little bit lost, i feel angry, resentful, sad. . . we all miss him so much.