Anyone else raising a child conceived from an attack?
My son was conceived after someone who was a very close friend threw a huge temper tantrum that ended in him sexually assaulting me. I love my son, but I don't think I will ever completely heal from what happened to me. My life has become a lot more complicated, I love being a mother and I don't resent my kid at all but he does remind me of everything I've lost. At the same time though he's also all I have. I love him so much but sometimes I break down and cry when I look at him because I get so overwhelmed with emotion.
I'm emotionally over-dependent on my son, too, I admit that. He gets annoyed at my clinginess sometimes and says things like "go away mommy" or "leave me alone". It breaks my heart but I understand why, I can be pathetically dependend on him for example waking him up at night because I'm scared and lonely. :(
Is anything else going through the same thing. Do you love your kid or do you resent them, and would you change the past if you could.