I feel like the most shallow woman on earth . I was online and I saw this guy picture and he looked so adorably cute in his photos..We started talking and got really close. He's like the most perfect guy for me personality wise.. very funny, sweet, sensitive ,caring ...I could go on and on . So we decided to meet eachother and I met him...he was the guy in the photos but NOT nearly as cute . He takes cute pictures but in person he's quite odd looking. I was very disappointed in his looks but his personality keeps outshining what he looks like .
I still see him ...I invite him over to my place all the time but im afraid to go out in public with him. I think we'd be the ugly odd looking couple and that freaks me out because I always care what everyone else thinks. It's an ongoing problem with me that im in therapy for . I dont have an opinion about myself...I base how i feel about myself by how others perceive me so the fact that this guy is wierd looking freaks me out.
I tried to consider just breaking things off with him...but i cant. I just cannot let him go. He knows everything about me and never judges me. He treats me better than any guy has ever treated me . I strongly believed I would NEVER meet a guy I could allow around my kids because i think all men are secretly predators and i could never trust them. I dont get that vibe at all from this guy...not even a little bit. He knows my kids are autistic and he accepts them. He met them for the first time two days ago ..I told my kids he's mommy's friend. They LOVE him...and he loves them . My son is head over heels for him. He's so natural with them. When I saw how he interacted with my kids ...it just sucked me in even more .
They always ask about him now.
He's like the perfect guy for me but I cant get over his looks. I cant just keep him hidden in my house whenever he comes over . Its not fair to him. He wants to take me and my kids to see the lion king on broadway this saturday but im worried about how we will look together in public.
I dont know what to do...I only have 2 days to make a decision.