Yesterday my son woke up with a fever. He was acting fine other than the fact that he was so hot and he was acting extra tired. I wasn't going to take him to the children's nighttime clinic, but we ended up taking him anyway just in case.
After we got there, we sat for 1 1/2 hours. Understandable, but I didn't think to bring his tylenol so his temp was going up most of the time we were there. They took his temperature wrong. I knew the temp they got was way below what his temp actually was. I asked the doctor to recheck his temp, she didn't. She looks at his ears, says they look perfect. She looks at his throat, says it's a little red but nothing too bad. They did a strep test, said it must be viral since that came back negative, and sent us home.
Pulling into the drive way at home, he started having a seizure. Worst fucking experience of my LIFE. I'll never forget how helpless I felt and how awful it was.
So we called an ambulance. We get to the hospital and the second the doctor looks in his throat he said "wow he's got blisters" and checked his ears, found an ear infection in both. His temperature was 103.3, not 100.
I told that bitch doctor that she was wrong, and something was wrong with my son. Doctors need to listen to mothers more. We might not have a degree, but when it comes to our own children, we know wtf is normal and what isn't.
Thankfully he is fine now (it was a febrile seizure aka fever seizure). I'd like to never repeat this experience, ever, in my life. I honestly think I need mental help now, though. I don't know how to deal with all the emotions and thoughts I'm having, and I can't stop replaying it all in my head. I know it only happened last night and it's still fresh, so I know it will get better, but I can't handle it right now. Does anyone have any advice on how to stop the whole thing from replaying in my head every time I close my eyes? Or how to NOT become the worst kind of helicopter mother after this? I'm really freaking out in my head.