I am at my breaking point. After living in an underground bug infested apt. for 3 years my SO refuses to move or even look for a new place. He never lisons to me, not a single thing I say. I have started saying "what did I just say" its like he thinks hes better then me but he is always WRONG! No matter what it is, on Saturday I started crying because the stress of my life was getting to me and said we need to move. He did what he always does goes from 0 to 50, (goddess he is a child) and thew out his favorite arrogant"get a job" I said fine let me go to college. let me get a real job that will support our DD. he said NO, you just want to sit around and do nothing and make me pay for your college. Bla Bla Bla"
Here is a little background on my last 3 jobs.
1)When pregnant I had a full time job as a customer service rep at a computer resale business. Good pay, insurance, full time. After my leave they even offered me part time (couse they loved me so much!) SO made me quit couse he could not handle watching DD for a few hours and refused to let us take her to child care so I became a SAHM
2)Now he lost his (crappy) [note this happened a few times couse he quit allot] job but he did not get one right away so I got a job at a local pizza joint. It was a lot of fun, I was a sign girl (I would pop in my Ipod go to the street and shake my booty with the sign for the pizza place) I also worked the register. The liked me and I got almost full time, above minimum wage and FREE PIZZA! SO hated baby sitting and bitched that I would "strip" for money (really) So when he got a job that conflicted with my hours they offered to change them, but you can imagine the tantrum. So I had to leave. (PS they told me I can come back anytime I wonted)
3)Last job was the worst I got a night job at Mcdonald did not last a month. He would show up with DD and demand to know why I was not home (sometime you have to say late right) say I could not go. call all the time. I just quit.
I cant leave the apt with out calling him and letting him know everything. He does not chaek my phone but I have to give him a play by play of the text phone calls the its the same thing in my eyes. I have no, zero, zip excess to money and have to beg him to buy me anything (I thing its a power trip for him) but here is the funny part, I have to pay for everything. When we go anywhere he will not stand in line to pay for anything I have to, he will not pay any bill, I have to, he will not even get off the couch to get the Chinese. (that was a fun tantrum) He has to control everything. DD loves MLP and I made a remix CD for her for the car I love the music and so does she but SO is so selfish he wont let her listen to it.
I am a good mother and house wife I clean and do the dishes by hand drive everywhere (he does not have a license) I cook all our food FROM SCRATCH! Not kidding I will spent up to 2 hours a night in the kitchen cooking a healthy dinner for him and DD.
I have lost over 50lds last year, he does not care.
For the last month I have been telling him if he does not change he will lose me, but it seem like he does not even care, so I have just started saying "tick-tock"
I have packed a bag but have no were to go. He never hit me so I dont think I can go to a shelter and I dont really want to take DD there (I know Im prideful) I have no family that will take me in.