Can you guys tell me what's going on in our relationship?
Hey everyone...its been awhile since i've been on cafemom. Things have been very calm in my life lately..I can actually say im quite happy .
So Im still with the guy I met online. Alot has happened since I made that post last month. He basically dumped me...and said he was through.It's not working out etc. I didnt want to end things so I made one last ditch effort and told him that I loved him . ( I didnt at the time i just really liked his company and the affection) He softened after i told him i loved him and he came over so we can talk. We talked for hours and decided to try again.
Since that night our relationship intensified greatly. It's like a totally different relationship . We get along fantastically...He changed alot. I feel things for him I never felt for any other man ...not even my babyfather who i swore up and down I was in love with and was so hurt... What i feel for my current boyfriend is way more intense than anything i ever felt with my babyfather. It doesnt even come close.
The only thing that's bothering me is the fact that I have more feelings for him than he does for me. The sex we have is like nothing ive ever experienced before in my life...and we were talking about it and i said yeah its like making love but without the actual love since you dont love me . He wrote me a very long text explaining that eventhough he doesnt say the words he does love me...and his words were very true. I know what he said was a fact. He looks at me and i just get a ton of butterflies....He's constantly staring at me ...any and everywhere we go . He just stares at me like he's in love and i told him i dont do PDA but when we lock eyes he just cant help himself.. We were outside yesterday and he was staring as usual and he kissed me and my knees literally buckled ..We were ordering pizza last week and a little kid ... he was maybe 10 years old and he said " I just want to tell you that you two look so nice together. " His mother who was standing there agreed with him and she told us that she has a feeling and were a blessed couple and she went on and on. It was WEIRD....weirdest thing that ever happened to me in my life! We werent even NEAR eachother when the kid said it..I was standing off to the side ... and as we walked home he looked at me and i felt faint .. I felt like I was literally staring at my husband.
I feel as though this has to stop... things are WAY intense . I think im gonna end up getting hurt.
There are times where ill send him a sweet text and he wont respond to it at all ...than my feelings are hurt but i dont want to seem clingy so i dont mention it at all the next day .
He told me yesterday via text that he loves me but he is not in love with me. I feel like im in love with him. It's not equal at all.
An hour ago i texted him i said describe our intimacy...sex...intense sex..or making love. I was hoping he'd say making love...but he said intense sex! My feelings are hurt ... I havent texted him back . I dont know what to do from this point ... How do I pull back all these feelings for him? He's not in love with me :(
I dont understand why he's not in love with me.
I want to be able to keep things going...but instead of me being the chaser... I want him to chase me and intensify his feelings for me instead of the other way around.