Im having a difficult time in my life. From the age of 17-29 I was with a man who fathered 4 of my children. Half of the relationship was good, the other half domesticly bad. He put me through hell. His favorite thing was to choke me up against the wall. He cheated, sold drugs out of our home, caused us to have to leave with only the clothes on our backs while I was pregnant with out fourth child. I was able to get me and the kids our own place.
He continued to abuse me there, while he had lived with another woman ...... he still felt like he was able to control my life and continued to abuse me even after we were not together. to make a long story short... he was arrested for breaking a ppo that I had to fight the courts to get.... it just so happen that a domestic violence advocate went to his court hearing for me and returned to say.....
HOney you need to get to a shelter or leave town immediately and they are releasing him today. I moved to Detroit with my new boyfriend and the father of my youngest. He showed me what true love was but by the two year mark I had lost trust in him. I took and left him...... not a great decision but I am still learning. I am now in a relationship again after a 2-3 year break of learning who I was, getting an associates degree in hopes of better financially raisin my 5 children. Two years ago I met the man I am with currently. we stayed friends for almost a year before entering into a relationship. we got a long great. now we live together he says that I am mentally sick and that I need help. I know he is trying to help me but yet I see myself getting loud trying to get my point out there. I almost can't. It's like I don't know anything because I am sick and dont realize what I am doing. I feel like sometimes he is not always right but I do have a temper and If i feel like its somewhat of an attack its almost immediately I fight back or feel like I have to.
I know I have anxiety, my chest gets heavy, my hands shake like crazy, headaches 2-6 times a day. I was also in a bad car accident that caused brain swelling. tbi closed head injury with brain contusions. the doctors told my parents that I would change. That accident was 20 years ago. I am struggling with what is going on with me. no doctor has told me why the headaches keep being such an issue. I did one time attempt something by taking 16 celexa. I went to the er and was released. Since then I have set me up with a therapist and a psychiatrist
Has anyone had a successful recovery from domestic violence? It has been 7 years since I left that relationship and I feel like it's still ruining my life. Im not sure if its domestic violence the car accident I just dont know.
Any comments suggestions or similar stories are welcomed. I just need to get this out there. I am looking for help maybe shared stories of success that what I feel or am going through can get better.
Thank you very much for reading and for any responses good or bad to possibly help me get stronger.