Frustrated SAHM looking for some advice and guidance....any advice welcomed!
Hey everyone, for those who I haven't met yet I'm Ash. I'm looking for advice. I'm a SAHM to two wonderful babies. My oldest is Aleister, a loveable, highstrung 19 month old boy and my youngest is nearly 4 months old, her name is Phoebe. I don't really know what to say...before I begin I'm not really complaining I'm just unsure what to do. When I was younger I never imagined myself being a SAHM, I actually broke off a relationship because the guy wanted me to be a SAHM, but here I am at 22, a stay at home mommy and here lately I feel like every day is testing my sanity. I love my children very, very much but recently I have been getting extremely frustrated. My oldest is constantly getting into things he shouldn't, tearing up the livingroom I just cleaned. It seems like every meal, bath, and nap time (nap are getting better) is just another tantrum waiting to happen. He's constantly painting his high chair or himself with the food i fix for him without him barely touching it, at the end of every meal it's a bowl (or plate) dumped over his head. I've tried sitting with him to prevent this from happening but if I turn my back for a second to check on Phoebe, when i turn back around there is something in his hair. My husband loved our sons long hair but I finally had to cut it because it was so hard to maintain. And now here recently our daughter has been crying ALL THE TIME...I have to either constanly hold her or bounce her or something to keep her content. I have no time to really play with my son and when I do I am so physically exhausted I can't muster up the energy to take him out to play. I feel like it's hurting my relationship with my son. I feel horrible for saying this but it's starting to make me angry with my daughter because Aleister prefurs his grandparents or dad more than me. I know I shouldn't feel that way but please....can someone help me, give me advice? Please?