My grandpa (dad's side) is dying. He has really bad cancer- in his brain, lungs and spine.. he's been on Hospice for about 2 weeks. He hasn't woken up at all today and he's not breathing right. Nobody thinks he'll live through the night.
So- I know this is a lame thing to be upset about right now.. but I can't stop thinking about how much it'll suck if the funerals are at the same time. YES it sucks that my grandparents are dying/dead. I love/d them- but, I can't change that. Y'know? If I could, I would.. but I'm not God. So- if Grandpa dies tonight (which he probably will. Poor guys been holding on for 3months) the chances are pretty high that the funeral will be on Saturday too. Then what do I do? I can't miss either... and to top that off
here's one of the great things that pregnancy makes me worry about
I have nothing to wear. I dont fit in my old clothes- and I can't make the faux pas of not wearing black. So? I have to go shopping-no big deal, right? Wrong. Shopping makes me more depressed (going from size 3 to size 9 would do that to most women) and I hate maternity clothes. I hate funerals.