I've thought this for awhile but I thought maybe it was someting else and would go away. My son is 8 months old. If he gets upset and I've tried to calm him down for a little while and nothing seems to be working I get angry and yell at him. Somtimes I'm not all that gentle when handling him when I get angry. I HAVE NEVER HURT HIM. But sometimes the thought is there. I don't always want to be around him. Sometimes I feel like I have to make myself want to play with him and bond with him. Let me be clear, I love my son with all of my heart and most days we have lots of fun playing together. It took me almost 6 months to get the motivation to clean my house every day. I know I get moody. I'm a SAHM with no car so I know that doesn't help things but I don't think it's just being around him all the time. It's been going on since he was very little. I think I kept trying to come up with excuses for what it could be because I was ashamed to admit it. I really don't want to be on a medication that makes me have to stop breastfeeding.