how much would you put up with for the sake of family & love?
I'm not going to sugar coat this to make you on my side. I'm just telling you the honest truth and how it is. It's a long story but I will make it as short & to the point as possible. My dh and I have been married almost 4 years this September. We have a 2.5 year old dd. We've been through our ups and downs like any marriage but I'm getting weak & exhausted trying to hold my family together. In a nutshell, my dh is a great provider, great husband and great father. BUT when he turns angry, he is a MONSTER. Ruthless. Careless. Mean. Hateful. Hurtful. He has been caught for the 4th time texting a random girl for sexual reasons. I give this man sex anytime he wants it. Every other night is the norm unless I am feeling ill and for 4 days I had migraines and lack of sleep therefore I was not in the mood. Well, we ended up in a big fight and that's what pushed him to text this girl off of a dating site. I catch him every single time because I get a knot in my stomach and feel nauseated. Each time I have been right. I have NEVER given him a reason to go elsewhere. Nothing has ever gotten physical with the other girls because I have nipped it in the butt right away and have personally spoke with the girls. He always says it will never happen again and I have cried and begged him not to do it and he always says he wont. He lies. I cant trust him. I dont want to stay and put up with this or his anger. I am in fear when ever he is angry because I never know what he will do out of anger. He's mentally abusive when he is angry. He yells, screams, kicks & throws things and says threatening things to me in front of our daughter. How much would you put up with for the sake of love and keeping the family together? We have no insurance for counseling or the extra money to get help. IDK, I am so hurt and tore down. I dont want to start over. What's your thoughts about this?