I had my son just over a week ago on December 31st. Things have been great really and he is doing wonderful. The thing is I cry all the time. I just feel like I've ruined his life by having and keeping him. Me and his father are together but he annoys the crap out of my mom by making stupid comments. This annoys me too and it just seems like he is dragging his feet in life now. We both are seniors in high school but while I worked hard while going through a hell of a pregnancy and finished my required classes for graduation early he is getting fathr and farther behind. Both his family and mine are worried he won't be able to graduate this year because he is so far behind. This really annoys my mom and whenever he comes over to see the baby and me my mom pretty much disappears in order to prevent from her saying something she will regret. I hate all of it and I cry all the time just feeling like I ruined my sons life and he could have such a better life if he would have a full family. I don't want to have to choose between his father and my mom because my mom is so much more of a help and support. I'm so scared of what will happen to my son and what his future will be like but I know it won't be as great as he deserves. Sorry for ranting I needed To get that out but now I'm crying again. I love my son to death but I can't help but cry knowing I've really ruined his life.
on Jan. 9, 2013 at 3:35 AM