I found out this past Friday through a blood test that I am pregnant again. My husband and I conceived on our wedding night (YAY!) and I'm due on 1/7/2012. After my daughter was born in late 2007, I suffered from severe PPD, panic and anxiety attacks. I found a psychiatrist who put me on a benzodiazepine- klonopin. I was taking 1mg, 3 times a day. It wasn't until 3 years after the start of this medication, that I began to feel as if my doctor was not helping me, so I switched doctors. My new psychiatrists jaw hit the floorwhen he found out the medication I was on, how long I'd taken it, and hoe much I'd been taking. He began to slowly reduce the amount of the medication but I needed another medication (Clonidine) added due to the withdrawls, and is also given to me for an irregular heartrate of 160 BPM resting. I also had a bad car accident last year which left me with a severe case of PTSD. For that, I was put on Luvox because I have an SSRI sensitivity.
Anyway, I am now on 0.5mg of klonopin at bedtime instead of the 1 mg 3 times a day, and 0.1mg of Clonidine to help the racing heart. When I found out I was pregnant Friday, Stupid me took it upon myself to discontinue all 3 of my medications. Having a horrible anxiety attack along with sharp kidney stone pain, I ended up in the ER and after waiting 3 hours to be seen, I was discharged without any help. Before I left, I was told that I can NOT be on these medications because they cause harmful side-effects to the baby. When I saw my OBGYN Friday, he told me it WAS safe to continue taking the medications until the 3rd trimester, and then the only medication that would HAVE to go would be the Luvox. I TRUST my OBGYN. He has delivered all of the babies in my family, but I can't shake this fear about the medications harming my baby. I have tried on 3 separate occasions to stop the benzodiazepine, and each attempt has ended badly: the 1st put me in a behavioral hospital for withdrawal symptoms, the 2nd again for unwanted self-harming thoughts, and this time I have a generalized over-all feeling of pure fear over me. I called the on-call doctor at my OBGYN's practice last night after I left the ER and she rudely told me that she didn't want to deal with a basket case, so I needed to take the medications anyway, so I did, which helped with some anxiety last night and allowed me to get about 3 hours of much needed sleep.
My question is, who do I trust? I'm terrified, but I know I can not go off of my medications. Has anyone else taken a bezodiazapie while pregnant and had a healthy baby??? PLEASE help me with this...... Abortion is not an option.