This is terrible but I am still not excited about having a baby. I feel really bad about myself and wonder if this means I will be a bad mom. I'm 42 and this is my first (and only) child so I think I should be excited, but I'm not. I am in a wonderful relationship, have a good job, and am a very lucky lady overall. Why dont I feel like this will add to my wonderful life? Confused by my feelings. Anyone else out there?