Okay so i am 20 weeks 1 day pregnant and i love that i'm pregnant with my first baby, But me and my fiance all the way up to 19 weeks thoguht we were having a boy an that's what we really really wanted an i felt my fiance would be disappointed if we didnt have a boy. So we go to the ultrasound an the baby had her legs crossed an somewhat moved but she didn't open them all the way but the doctor said it looks like a girl. So my fiance was happy an has seemed happy an to my suprice i am the one thats disappointed an i hate myself for not being more excited i mean i am pushing myself to be excited an everyone else seems to be 100X more excited then me that i'm having a girl, when i keep telling myself that it's okay an to be happy but in the back of my mind i'm hoping the doctor was wrong and it really is a boy. I feel like a horrible mother an a horrible person an when i sit there and think about how i feel i can't help but sit there and cry, my fiance has no clue on how i feel about this, i mean i really really wanna boy but girls arnt a horrible thing i just dont know. i never wanted a girl. so i cant help but hope the doctor is wrong..uggh HELP PLEASE !!!!