So some of u know mine and SO back story (not going to bore u) we've been together for over 4 years have 2 going on 3 great kids together and our sex life has always been great!!!well I'm not ok with porn(yes a lot of women are and I will never talk bad or disagree but its personal)when I got with SO he said he felt the same it rujined his moms marriage.apparently it was an act because I've been catching him looking at it.we've gone over this before he says sorry promises not to look again a month or 2 later he's back at it.sneaking out of bed at odd hours to watch it in the bathroom/living room.the last time it happened I told him I was done I refuse to deal with it.he admitted he had a prob and he would change.I'm pregnant yes 36 weeks but even when I don't feel good I give it to him.(men need to be satisfied)getting to the point now.....two nights ago I was having real bad contractions got way too much heat and could barely walk.I went to bed he said he was going to play his game then come lay down....5 hrs later no sign I go out to the livingroom there he is on my phone watching porn :(.I freaked told him I'm done.we didn't talk the next day.I brought it up last night asking him what was up he said he's sorry won't do it again.wake up in the am....I activated my google history and there he was again last night.so laying on the couch tonight he starts rubbing on me.I am hesitant but then he just starts going down on me(what girl can resist that)he puts it in and I get sick to my stomach and just lay there looking at him.it was so awkward he pulled out and asked me what was wrong I just got up and went in the room.now idk what to do or say.is our relationship doomed am I acting crazy?sorry I'm laying here crying and confused.help please!
on Jul. 14, 2012 at 2:33 AM