Lately i've been fighting depression without medication because of my pregnancy. Things just keep getting worse for me and keep going down hill. I used to turn to marijuana for a coping skill with my depression and yesterday i caved at my lowest point. I ended up smoking and got really sick. I feel utterly guilty and such a shitty person for doing it. I regret it 100% and now i have to live with it everyday now. I wish i wouldve just called someone instead of smoking. Ive been clean for about 5 months and now i screwed it up. It just almost seems like i cant catch a break.