Hi all-
I am sixteen weeks 4 days with my second baby. I go to the doctor for reg ob appt on Monday (have had a ton). We tried for four years to get this baby-six failed IUI's and four failed IVF's all with no diagnosis. Now this happened on our own. Baby is fine, had ultrasounds, very healthy, etc. I just have this horrible feeling something terrible will happen. I remember feeling this way a little with my first-totally healthy full term baby boy, but nothing like this. I know the cause, is feeling it's too good to be true and something we wanted so long and were dissapointed so much, that I'm afraid to be let down. My doc keeps reassuring me, but I just feel like something bad will happen. Like I will go in and they will do an ultrasound on Monday and tell me my baby is dead or something. I can't say I have felt much movement, but I have a lot of scar tissue from my first c-section and the placenta is at the front of my uterus or something, so he had told me I might not feel movement as early as normal. I just feel panicked. I feel so great when I leave the appt and I'm hoping to find out the sex. My husband has been very supportive, but just feel like it's so morbid and I should just be ecstatically happy, not panicked all the time. Any kind words or just to know others have felt this way and their babies have been fine would be great.
Thanks and sorry so long,
You've been through alot, so I think it's natural for you to expect the worse. I was afraid something would happen to my baby and had a lot of negative thoughts as well, but so far everything is fine. The way I combatted my negativity was to say "My baby is FINE," everytime I had a negative thought. It must have worked, because I'm not so worried anymore.
Its also normal to worry we have ttc for 4 years and one late second tri loss ...this little one is doing great but worry is still there
*hugs* I understand where you're coming from. I still get moments of panick with this baby. I had two perfectly healthy baby girls but then last year I had a miscarriage. Early this year I had another one and at that appointment when I went in at 9 weeks they told me that my baby had passed away. I think I spend the entire first trimester with this one praying for peace. I'm 22 weeks today and my son is perfectly healthy! :-) I keep having to remind myself that God is in control. Now that I can feel the baby consistently and other people can feel him I find myself less scared and more excited. :-)
It could just be the crazy hormones, exaggerating your emotions of anxiety. A lot of moms have this actually. It's just so important and miraculous that it's hard to stay calm about when you feel like you have little or no control. But what's meant to be will always find a way and it sounds like this little miracle baby is meant to be.
How much weight did you all gain?
- TMOM101
on Nov. 24, 2012 at 10:44 AM