I was all set to tell hubby when he got home but now that its getting closer to time, Im chickening out :(
*** I told him this morning and it was worse than I thought it would be. He locked himself in the bathroom, and when he finally opened it so I could brush my teeth he starts with "I cant f-ing believe this. How the F did this happen. Im too f-ing old to have another child. We have one child with f-ing autism and another whos hair falls out.... We cant afford another F-ing child etc etc etc"
I walked away. I asked him later if he wanted the kids and I to go stay with my mom and he said he didnt but he is pissed. :( Believe me ive gone over all of this in my head. I realize I have an autistic son, I deal with him everyday. Hes going on about how he cant start his own business now because I cant be on private insurance, How we arent going to be able to leave the house, hes going to be stuck home all day. Frankly it was F-ing selfish on his part! He didnt bother to ask how I feel, he just yelled and cursed and made me cry. I got a peck on the cheek when he left but, no apology for his behavior. I HAVE LUPUS, IM HOME WITH THE KIDS ALL THE TIME, HE GETS TO GO OUT WHENEVER HE WANTS, I DONT STOP HIM! I want to smack him and tell him to WAKE UP!!!!
****Another update - We are talking on the phone and he has apologized. He was happy to hear about the change in health insurance (Big thanks to the momma who posted that) and has agreed to take it 1 day at a time :) Hes still concerned but in a better mood****