Me and my fiancee have been trying for a year for a baby. He was sure he couldnt have kids, and we were just about to start some testing when on Dec 10 we found out we were pregnant. After a long year of praying and praying and trying and doing every little myth possible. We were beyond excited!
Now since a week before we found out I have been having horrible morning sickness, to the point i could barely take care of my other two kids [from a previous relationship] i stopped cooking dinner everynight and the house got messier than where definitely used to, plus on top of morning, well ALL DAY sickness, i was sick then got a sinus infection, i have been absolutely miserable, not including how tired ive been since i wake up at 5am to get my kids ready for school and drive my fiancee 20 miles to work.
Well my fiancee has been complaining about me not cooking or cleaning or putting on makeup and getting dressed up anymore, and doesnt even believe me when i tell him its because of how sick ive been. Now mind you, yesterday i felt great and i got so more done than i have since i found out i was pregnant, i am NOT a lazy person at all, the few days ive felt ok, i took and passed my GED test, and took my enterance exam for nursing school. I havnt just layed around and done absolutely nothing.
Well basicallyu yesterday he called me on his lunch and told me not to pick him up from work, that he was going to his moms with his brother and was probably staying the night there, i knew that ment something was VERY wrong, then last night he told me he was tired of "the life we have been living" and tired of me not doing anything and doesnt want to be with me anymore.
im so hurt because this happened because of the baby he wanted so bad, i have my two kids and was fine with that, but he wanted one of his own and i agreed we should, but I was doing it a lot for him [yes i wanted this baby too, but not to raise another one on my own]
I need advice, I dont know what to do, hes set on us not being together, and I can not support another baby on my own, I dont even work right now, he was financially supporting us so I can finish nursing school. How will I make enough money to support the 4 of us, plus take care of a new baby with a 3 and 4 year old. I will have to give up school , and I dont even know what typoe of decent job I can get with no degree yet. We had a very comfortable life with him working, me being a stay at home mom, and just going to school. I do not believe in abortion, but I almost wish I did, i just know its something i could personally never do. I feel so stuck and lost .