I'm about 35 weeks pregnant with out first kid. I'm just feeling so emotionally and physically drained. My pregnancy itself has been pretty easy, no scares or worries, but my life on the other hand is all over the place, and I'm just soooo done. I am so hoping after he arrives I will feel so much better.
My mom was diagnosed with Colon cancer shortly after my husband and I discovered we were expecting, so our happiness was, short lived per say. I'm a momma's girl so I worry about her constantly, and I know *worry* and stress isn't good, but I try not to, but she's always on my mind. They recently stopped her chemotherapy after noticing something was up with her liver enzymes, she had a CT scan, and they've noticed a spot on her liver. She had some more tests to see if the cancer had spread, however the DRs are confident it may just be some sort of fatty build-up due to the chemotherapy. She's also had some allergic reactions to her drug. I want to stay positive, but it's just harrrrd! We won't know anything until the 12th of this month.
Shortly after that my dog delivered puppies, everything was great until we took them to get their first round of shots. Within 24hrs, all 6 puppies had contracted parvo. Vet was confused and they all stayed at the vet for 7 days. All but one passed away. We had no plans to keep any of the puppies, but Annie is still with us today. With all the crying and late nights I couldn't bare to get rid of her. Not to mention the vet bill.
After the puppies, our emergancy money was drained, and I began to worry about that, but we were fine and moved on. I haven't worked since April of last year, and hubby didn't want me to go back to work until after son was born. It made sense to me, I didn't know anyone who would hire someone who was pregnant anyway.
Finally some smooth sailing for a few months, and things calm down. I start to enjoy being pregnant and FINALLY let myself get excited about the future. Hubby & I had no plans to have kids, but now that is happened we are more than extatic to welcome baby "L" (we aren't revealing the name until birth) to the world in March. But boy did that not last long. The company my husband works at filed for Bankruptsy, and everyone's hours were cut. He was working 40-50 hours a week, and now it's down to 20 *IF* he's lucky. For instance last week he got 28 hrs, and the week before only 10. I made a tough decesion and went back to work with 8 weeks to go in my pregnancy. The place I worked last April was more than happy to hire me. I only work part time, 3-4 days a week for about 6 hrs each day, but I'm hoping it will help until my husband's hours go back to normal or he finds another job. He has already put in applications else where in case the company falls (although they have made promises it won't and told employee's not to worry) How can I not?
Because of all the stress and money issues we've had recently we don't have much for the baby yet. But people are telling me not to worry, just wait for the baby shower.
I've also gained 45lbs the entire pregnancy. With 5 weeks left I'm hoping I don't gain too much more, but, with all this going on I don't know. * Part of this I think may be weight from recent weight loss coming pack. Jan-June of last year my husband was gone for the National Guard. I lost approx 20lbs. I was 150 when he left, and 130 when he returned. I kept the weight off until I got pregnant. I was 130 PP, and now weight 173-4.
I guess, I'm just tired and stressed out. I wish I could just fall asleep and wake-up when it's over. I would rather stress about the baby than everything else, but I just can't seem to help it.
Any advice or ideas about what I could do to find some stress relief and relax in the next few weeks before baby arrives?