So I dont know if this is in my brain or I just want a little girl so bad I have punked myself out. I go around 3weeks for my 20wk u/s. An all I do is look at lttle girl things and dont even get as interested in boys. The reason is for this is the dad believes and I believe on how much my symptoms are so totally different from my boys, we think its a girl. Well he believes in his heart its a girl. My neighbor found out last month she was having a girl. I am so happy for her. We talk about some of the things I make for little girl's she would like to have and I say that I am excited to see if this one is what we both believe it is(GIRL).
This morning I was in bliss asleep... when my phone goes off from a text message. The girl I have kept my distance with is having another girl. So I woke up saying here we go again. Cause I know how she can be..... And my mind starts to wonder with emotion. The two people I know is having a girl, now watch me have another boy. I will be really hurt if I do but I cant change it. I feel so wrong as a person and a mother. And now I am wondering if I have seriously punked myself out. With all these dreams of the baby being a girl, even at toddler size. With the boys I had dreams of boys through my whole pregnancy. It has gooten so bad that I dreamed of the u/s tech asking us to write done how we want to find out. I am going crazy..
Any advice would be nice