Well my 4 year old and 3 year old left to go to their dads for 35 days today. I thought I would be okay, this is the second year that its happened an last year it was for 3 months. So I thought one month, No big deal right? I was wrong... my 3 year old freaked out screaming mommy I dont want to go you come too.. she wouldnt let me go.. I had to stay with her almost an hour past the time they were supposed to leave to calm her down and let her know it was okay. I didnt cry until after I got to the car, but havent been able to stop since then.. I went as far as thinking I could slash holes in tires, they couldnt go then.. but I want to be the person I want them to be. Idk if its hormones or what being 7 months pregnant with twins an possibly going at anytime. But whatever the case its starting to piss me off. I am not only extremely mad and lashing out at people but im weepy. Just want to sleep. I think im losing weight which im sure my dr will gripe at me about. I think im losing peices of my mucus plug, hell if I know, my bowel movements are changing, their movements are picking up today I didnt sleep but for two hours last nigth and for some reason still have energy today and I just want to be done! I want august 4th here so my babies will be home and I can rest easy again.
Sorry for the rant... :( dk how im gonna make it through the next month. My kids are the reason I cook daily, half the time they are the only reason I eat as I hardly get hungry enough for a meal..