I know have a living son and daughter. I love my son and am not disappointed now that he's here but I would be lying if I said I wasn't slightly disappointed when I found out.
Now that I'm having baby number four I want another daughter so bad. Having a Son has been a great experience but its also a lot different than having a daughter. I want a healthy baby most of all and will obviously still adore baby if its a boy but I feel like ill be morning the loss of a girl in my head and that my daughter will be disappointed a third time to not have a baby's sister and my husband to not have a daughter of his own.
I just feel in my gut it's a boy. I almost don't want to find out at all but I think it'll just make me even more anxious than I already am about it and I need that time to adjust to the idea of baby being boy.
I have about 3 weeks til my elective ultrasound. I'm trying to think pink but not getting hopes up too high. Am I crazy to feel this way. I feel so alone