We got our confirmation ultrasound today!! I am offically 5 weeks pregnant! I am due October 13th. I have the best and most supportive Dad to be. He's terrified; this is his first child and my 3rd. We are no longer together and actually got pregnant by complete mistake and very quickly.
(I have an IUD in and we got pregnant within the week of us dating; please no bashing or saying we shouldnt of had sex and yadayada!)
He has been on the fence since the first time I thought I might be pregnant, been very back and forth and confused. But he was with me every single time I peed on a stick. He was with me when i went to the first two doctor appointments and today during the ultrasound. He's deteremined to be with me every step of the pregnancy and in the childs life as much as he possibily can.
I feel guilty because niether of my sons fathers are involved in their life. They don't know them, don't see them and I don't even get help with them. Which is fine; their fathers are toxic anyways and we're better off. But I feel like this because this baby is going to have their father around and active in their life and I don't want my sons to feel unloved or that this baby means more because thats not true; I love all my children the same.I don't know what to do :(
this baby's dad has already put away all his tax money and sold his truck for money to help save up the money for the stuff we're going to need. He's super excited and involved (we're very early and he's already looking at pink camo carseats lol). He's picked out names and has considered us working out our differences so we can be a family. Which i am not sure i want to do. He wanted to be involved with someone else which is why we broke up in the first place. But it seems since we found out he's changed..
My high school sweetheart (my oldests father) left me when I was 6 months pregnant, he never helped with names or cared either way. i was basically a freeride for the 5 months he lived with me. 2 years later (my youngests dad) was exteremly abusive and raped me to trap me into not leaving him. My mom rescued me while he was out at work and thats why we're not together and he never cared about either of us as soon as i was gone. Niether have ever give or provided for their sons. Ever.
But how do i feel less guilty? For this baby having a father and my sons not? idk how to feel..