Im 21 weeks pregnant and my nerves are going a mile a minute!!!!
I am 21 weeks and nerves are going all over the place. Back story I have a 8 year old who has autism and had open heart surgery to close heart murmurs. My 6 year old has PKU (metabolic condition that limits what she eats and we have to monitor it really well if he levels go to high she could have seizures or worse). She also has autism. Our youngest has had 3 open heart surgery's for a life long condition called hypoplastic left heart syndrome, a rare congenital heart defect in which the left ventricle of the heart is severely underdeveloped. Now all three of my children were a form of birth control. And yes i was using the birth control correctly. Now I have been off birth control for almost two years and not able to be on birth control due to my cysts. I ended up pregnant. My husband has a latex allergy we had a tried other forms but there were issues with both. Due to my cysts and the medications I had not had a period in almost a year in a half. But I am pregnant. I wanted to have my tubs done after my youngest but due to the Hypoplastic left heart syndrome and that there could be complications and my son might not make it the doctor would not sign off and let me. I have gone to a few other doctors but could not get doctor approval. You would think that with all the medical needs of my children that I could get this done. Now you may ask why my husband is not fixed. To many issues to list but he has a medical issue that makes it hard to have any surgery and the doctors would not approve it for him. Long story short I am now 21 weeks and I go in for my first ultra sound and this one will be a more in depth untra sound then you normally have done at this stage. They will be looking closely at his heart and other areas looking for deformities. This coming thursday I am going in for the ultra sound. I am looking forward to another baby but the unknown about the health of the baby is now getting to me. I have been good tell now but now the apt is just a few days away. I am not sure what to expect and i am praying and hoping for the best. But the nerves are getting to me I have not had a good night sleep in a few nights. I am looking forward to the posibility of finding out boy or girl but not sure what to expect other then that.