I never dreamed of having a child. I always thought my friends who did have kids were weird for being so happy doing nothing but staying at home all the time. I think that I was so naive about myself. When I first found out I was pregnant I was scared; confused; nervous; WHAT DO I DO? I thought my husband, for some reason, would be mad when I told him the news. When I drove to his work, balling my eyes out, I knew my life would never be the same. Kyle was ecstatic about the news, and my heart felt huge as I eventually accepted the fact that I was on my way to being a mom. When Jullian arrived, I knew exactly what everyone desired about having children. There is nothing more satisfying and gracious as seeing something that lived inside of you and was nourished by your soul, come into this world. As Jullian was set upon my chest, my body hurt. It wasn't from the physical pain of labor, although that was quite painful. It was because I thought I really knew what true love was before all of this. I was wrong. True love is having a child. Loving him so much it hurts. I have no complaints about being a mother and can't wait to enjoy the rest of our lives together!!!!