I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner, I don't check my homepage very often. We're doing the best we can. Eliot's service is tomorrow and about a hundred people are attending. There have been very few tears on our end, Eliot's life was nothing to cry over he had an amazing life and had more love than he knew what to do with. While his life ended far too soon, but through his death he is teaching us the importance of supporting each other and how to let go. While the urge to start our family as soon as possible is there, we are in the process of moving into a new home a making sure that we are in the right state of mind before trying again. Thank you so much for your support, I feel sad leaving the group but I'll be back when things get a little easier. :)