It's coming closer to one year since you left us and it feels like a large, dark cloud looming over my head. I haven't been to the cemetery since your burial because that will make it too real for me. Mom wants me to go and plant some flowers there for her, but I just don't know if I can bring myself to go... I miss you, sis, so much much that it it hurts!
Well, mom got permission to move the girls to TN! Packing up the house where our grandparents lived and died and also where you spent your last days was both depressing and frustrating. I brought all your things to my house and when I feel up to it, I'm going to go though them. I did throw away your leg braces and all the stuff that was by your bedside because I just couldn't stand the thought of them being in my house.
Like she had a few hundred dollars lying around to pay the fines! I was so mad at Jay. I mean you just watched your mom die from cancer and here you are- smoking! Christie and Matt are buying mom a trailer and she's moving to TN. She's feeling gulity because she feels like she'd abonding me and you're grave is here. I told her she needs to get those girls out of here and I think moving is the best thing for them all.
Well, Shawn landed his ass in jail for beating the shit out of his new wife! We're all so happy about it! On a sad note though- your daughter, Jay got caught with cigarettes in her purse and was suspended from school. Mom is flipping because she has to go to court for it because of the zero tolerance policy.
Your kids are doing pretty good and it was so nice to see Jaleel over the holidays. They're getting so big and Ari looks so much like you!
I love you sis and I hope where ever you are, you are eating rice and beans...