I love being a mom.I did,nt become a mom until I was 34 years old. God chose that for me. I tried, but that is a long story. I can just tell you its worth telling and I am so blessed that he gave me a chance to be Willow's mom. Yes, that is her name. I joined cafe mom to get help from other mom's on how to find myself again. I love being mommy, but I need to find a hobby and find time with other women. I am from AL and don't have many friends here. I need to find things to do with other women, have conversation with women,do things with other mom's. My husband is very supportive of that and wants me to find my way,he is really encouraging this. I just do not know how to start. He is a DJ and musician and is very busy with that. He has always got friends to practice with, hang out with,go to parties with. Me,i used to do those things with him. I wanted to be a mom so bad and was told I would never be, so when my miracle came, I gave it all I have and still do. It is now, 19 months later, I see him still having a life other than being dad and wonder, where did Hilary go. So, If anyone can help me find a way to have fun as Hilary again, I will owe you so big. Thanks giving me this chance to share myself. I hope to find a lot of friends here, and share also my love for my daughter. I can always use advise on that matter !!