i am willing to break my back in order to fulfill all my boys needs all i am asking for is(not hearing them screan)

i am not expecting my husband to help me much with the boys, sometimes a nice words can do miracles.

i wish i can organize my time, i am sure it is the best way to raise happy kids and have a good life, but it is so hard, i wish some one can help. truly help.

i am not enjoying having 2 beautiful smart boys in my lifem the reason is that i am spending my time working, having no enough time to actually see how amazing they are.

i got so tired having notime for my self, sometimes i working DAY and night for them, they do not give any chance to MISS them.

i do have great ideas making my boys smarter , happier and better than (normal) but yet, i can't fulfill these ideas, because i don;t have the time, i don't get any help, and another reason which is i feel that there are a hedge, some obsticle i am not really aware of.

what kills me most is when my 23 months old boy asks me to SIT down to play with him but i refuse because there are dirty clothes MUST be washed in order for him to wear clean ones, or good food to be made for his health, or boiling the uncounted bottles for his milk. from distance i am watching his playing for the 100 times with the same toy for hours that passes by without sense it !

i hate the time when i have my period, its devil time, i wish i can hide in a cave and not letting any one talk to me especially my boys, because the rage and the sadness i feel effect them (oh my God)

i love my sister that i am willing to give my LIFE for her in order to see her happy , she is actually my mother who raised me well,   there is no one day passed without thinking of her, she is not happy and lonely, i can't enjoy anything in my life because she is not happy.