I am my own worst enemy

[Momof3cuties]

I am my own worst enemy....my biggest critic.  I am a perfectionist and an overachiever so when I don't reach my goals for a day or week, I beat myself up.  Who sets these goals?  ME!  I am a habitual list maker.   I am a neat freak.  My husband calls me Monica (from Friends) b/c I cannot stand to see things out of place.  I had oral surgery on Monday.  It's messed me up and the pain meds are kicking my butt & making me so tired.  I have a list a mile long of things that I need to accomplish before we go on vacation next month.  I am now behind on my work hours, house work and my list.  I am the kind of person who wakes up in the morning and hits the ground running.  I have my entire upstairs cleaned & a load of laundry going before I finish my first cup of coffee.  These past few days have been hard for me b/c I cannot function at that level which depresses me.  So I had this big list of stuff to do today b/c I was sure I would be feeling fabulous and back to normal today.  No such luck.  Here I sat feeling like I did nothing today, then I looked at my list and I crossed off a ton of stuff but I didn't do any real housework to speak of.  I cannot stand to sit here in a messy house & work but I need to work and my energy level is low b/c of the pain meds.  Here's what I realized I accomplished today:

breakfast with a friend, gave her donations for church clothing drive

picked up teacher gifts from 2 different stores

cleaned all the junk out of my car and had my car cleaned at the carwash

tanning-going to FL June 3

hallmark store to pick up cards and a teacher gift

returns to Sam's club

banking

one load of laundry

dinner---while dinner was cooking organized 2 cupboards

put together a bag of food for the food pantry, straightened my pantry

copied and put together flex spending stuff

copied and got rebate forms for phone ready to be mailed

called grief couseling center to get info for kids

activated new check card

picked up & dropped off daughter

worked 2 hours

napped

paid bills

called oral surgeon to confirm submission of claim to insurance co.

So explain to me why I feel like I didn't accomplish anything today?  You see, I truly am my own worst enemy!!

[upzdaisy1234]

May. 21, 2008 at 7:48 PM   I do the same thing ...lol.....that is part of being a great mother !!!!

[babygirl96]

May. 21, 2008 at 9:46 PM

You sound like me! It matters not to me that I can check 38 things off my list, if I can look around and see things out of place, I feel like I must have been slacking at some time during the day. Just because I don't earn a paycheck, doesn't mean I don't work hard, so I take my mothering/housewifery duties very seriously and when it annoys me that even I can't see the fruits of my labors, then I remind myself that household chores and mothering especially  are a marathon, not a sprint...it doesn't ALL have to be perfect today, if I did my best, then I can be pleased that I obeyed God for that day.  My hubby likes a clean house a whole lot, but he likes a happy wife with a bit of energy left to care for his needs more, so if it's a toss up between a clean house or a happy hubby, I vote for happy hubby every time...unless the in-laws are coming...LOL! Take it easy on yourself...dental surgery takes a lot out of you...it's ok, the house won't fall down around your ears in a week...plus it wounds like you got many worthwhile things done today, even if the dinner dished are still int hte sink...have the boys do them...they're big enough! Enjoy your vacation...sounds like you need one.

              Kristy