Wondering

[Lacey_NT]

I know that I should look at my life and what I have and be grateful. And I am, for the most part. Yes, it's stressfuly as hell being (almost) 25 years old, (technically-cause I'm not married) a single mom, and still living at home. It somewhat makes me feel like a failure of sorts. I always feel that there's something missing...something that's supposed to be here, in my life, and it's just out of reach. For example....let's say getting married. My SO and I have been together almost a year (It'll be a year on June 14). From pretty much the first moment I met him (in person, b/c we chatted for like a week straight over MySpace) I knew that he was something amazing. I really can't explain what it was, all I know is that it was this feeling. A feeling that was like wow...you know? I want him to propose so badly. He's told me that he wants to marry me, but he wants to get some bills and stuff taken care of first. I just get so anxious. I don't know what to do............just thought that I'd vent. Thanks.