My profile pic, that is my gut reaction to what I was witnessing. I bawled like a baby. I am soooo utterly sad and I feel so helpless, I hate that this has touched these people.....This tornado has devastated 4 towns.  One week ago today, right at this moment, those people had homes,jobs,and in a few hours they will be exactly one week from losing everything. only 3 minutes....3 Fucking minutes and its GONE.  IN Parkersburg, as far as I know, 4 people died(including children). My heart is going to beat out of my chest and I dont think I can even cry anymore. I met a woman with several young children yesterday and luckily she could use the clothes I brought, I was happy to be able to hand them to her. I grabbed her and hugged her so tight, we cried together and I wished I could tell her it gets easier. I wished so hard that I could tell her that I felt better after all this time. I told her that it will be hard and there is hope, we are safe now, sad, lonely, but safe and we have a home now. We lost our town, our comfortable and happy life. Katrina destroyed us, and now I see more destruction and I am utterly beside myself. I want to take them all to our house and make them comfortable, give them our beds and let them feel "normal".

 I feel guilty for letting this remind me of my loss. I am so humbled, and Im so grateful for what we have. I know the journey ahead of them and I cant help feeling like its just not fair. The devastation we saw yesterday has touched me to my soul. we see these things on tv, and though it is very close to our own house, I didnt think I would react the way i did. Just gutteral crying, the deepest sadness you can imagine. I felt so damn helpless, and I still do.

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Lb128f
Jun. 2, 2008 at 7:51 PM I'm sorry...for your loss and for theirs. Natural disasters are awful. I am glad you had the opportunity to go and help someone else. Saying a prayer for the families.

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Jenni...
Jun. 22, 2008 at 3:07 PM im sorry

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