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June 4, 2008 is coming so fast. And I am so not looking forward to that day. I really dis-like that day! My father past away when I was 15. On June 4, 1994. He had a Heart attack in his kitchen. My dad was such a great man. He was so loving and kind. And I miss him so much everyday!

And on top of the loss of my dad, I lost my big brother / bestfriend, Shawn . June 4, 2001. From the AIDS viruse. My brother and I were so close. We were together all the time. I never wanted to do anything unless he was there. I sometimes feel so alone now. And now that June 4, is coming. I am so depressed. I dont know how to get out of this funk. And I wish I could just skip that day or something.

And I feel like none of my family understand's, or care's. I know my old man acts as if I should be happy go lucky. But I just cant. And I dont even know how to explain to anyone why.

So what do you do? How do you just forget about the two people that ment the world to you, and how do you skip over the One day that they both left you for good ? How do I just smile, when on the inside I am dieing. How do I just not think about it? Im so lost, and just bumed out.

Patricia Mosso

Missing you now and forever!

Shawn R Davis ( Ghost )   My big brother

          &

Jack Mosso ( My daddy )

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lisad...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 1:55 AM IM so sorry for your loss.  Not sure on what to do, i just know time heals everything.  My dad passed away last yr from bacterial meningitis and i was truly a daddy's girl.  I dont think i will ever forget the pain, but it does get better as time goes by.  I miss him very much as well.  I will say a prayer though for you and ask God to help you get through this.

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ELLIE...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 2:18 AM sorry for your loss...

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sherriet
Jun. 2, 2008 at 9:28 AM

I am so sorry.  I felt like you do this past Feb 29 and March 26.  My dad died on 2/29 and his birthday would have been March 26.  My heart breaks to this day, especially when I think of how much he hasn't been here to share with us. 

They both knew how much you loved then and what they meant to you.  Hugs!  

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mom23...
Jun. 3, 2008 at 7:11 AM I am so sorry for your losses. Please know they are still with you in your heart

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