My baby girl was worried about me last night

[2nsmom]

Well, if you've read my thought bubble in the past couple days, you know that my hubby's ex-wife, the mother of my 2 stepchildren, is dying of bone cancer. She was given 6 months to live, but according to what we have been hearing lately, it seems like just a matter of time. She can no longer take care of herself and it has been getting harder for her to speak. Her girls have actually taken on the role of mother. What amazing girls they are. It is very hard to hear that such a vibrant, caring 42-year old woman has taken such a down-hill turn. Needless to say, this has been a huge emotional burden on everyone. Well, I think it all came to a head last night. My hubby and son had just gone to bed and Natalie, my 2 1/2 year old was watching Elmo. I was just sitting on the couch and thinking. After 2 days of not being able to cry, the tears started to come. I tried to hold them back when Natalie came over to where I was sitting. She stared at my face and could sense something was wrong. I think she saw my eyes were glassy and my face looked sad. She put her hands on me and said, in a worried voice, "Mommy? Mommy!" Her little lips quivered and she and I both ended up crying together. I just held her and she did not leave my side until I reassured her I was OK. She asked me, "You not sad now, Say no." So I said no. She said, "That's better. OK I go sit on the blanket now" (she watches TV on a blanket we spread out on the floor for her). She fell asleep soon after. I actually went to sleep with mixed emotions: feeling better that I had cried, feeling a little angry at myself for upsetting my daughter, but most of all, feeling amazed that a 2 1/2 year old could read emotions so well. I shared the story with my hubby this morning and he was also in awe. I think it made him feel a little better too. What magic our children bring to our lives.

[army__mom]

Jun. 2, 2008 at 9:56 AM our children sure have a way of making things better for us sometimes dont they/ hope your doing ok

[zoogie104]

Jun. 2, 2008 at 11:56 AM aww how sweet.  i am so sorry that you're going through this with your family.  children are amazing.

[lippygirl]

Jun. 2, 2008 at 2:08 PM sweet, sweet natalie!! she has such insight. do not feel bad that you let your feelings show. at a time like this you have to. so much emotion running through you. the kids may understand and feel bad for you, but they will be what pulls you through this time of sadness. they are the beat of our hearts when it feels a little broken. i hope you are well and taking care of yourself. i am so sorry that you have to endure this journey. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and your hubby's ex. peace to you, kris

[gustinebrat]

Jun. 2, 2008 at 2:12 PM that is so sweet i feel for you and your hubby and his kids this has to be very hard on all of you

[mary650251]

Jun. 3, 2008 at 10:20 PM i am sorry to hear about   your hubby ex-wife well it good that you cried and you had someone to cry with you  i will keep your family in my prayer