So last night I had an eye opening experience. We were at my mom's and I went outside to see what everyone was doing...my mom, dad and hubby were sitting outside talking about how stupid it would be for us to have another baby. Going on and on about how we're on the bring of another depression and that I can barely provide for my children that I have and a bunch of other bull. Okay so first of all, what business is it of yours what we do with our lives...but second, my children have everything they want and need. My mom actually said to me, "You better not Jenny, you better not. If you do, you'll have a lonely life!" What the hell is that supposed to mean!? Well, you biotch, I WON'T be lonely, I'll have my 3 kids and husband to keep me company! So I called her on it.I said "So if we have another one, you'll never talk to me again? You'll never see your grandchildren?" Oh, that's not what I said. And tried to play it off like I made it up! Well, you know what!? After dwelling on it all night long, I've made some decisions about my life. I need to make some changes...it won't be easy, but dammit, I'm going to try!

First, I need to make some pysical changes:                                                                *stop drinking soda                                                                                                          *cut out caffeinne                                                                                                              *eat healthier (better foods, smaller portions)                                                               *start exercising regularly                                                                                                    

Then I need to:

*go through the house and declutter/get rid of junk (Maybe, I'll have a yard sale!!??)

*start keeping a better house

*stop going over to my parent's house so often...cut it down to once a week. If they want to see the kids, they can come here more than once every couple months.

*Make new friends and have real play dates for my kids...maybe I'll find a real friend too!?

*stop swearing so much

*start being a nicer person. This is very important!

 

 

So anyway, thise are my new "better myself goals". I guess I just need to prove some things to myself! I need to get out of this funk that my parents put me in. God, I wish I could just tell them to eff off! Nothing I do, is ever good enough for them. I'm so sick of trying for nothing! 

               

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singe...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 1:13 PM Ok so not just my mom has the you can do better for yourself attitude. My hubby and I have been married 13 years and every chance she gets she degrades him, but to his face she adores him. Ughhh I like your list though, i started one myself and thus far have done pretty good. I make time for me in the mornign to sit on my porch and enjy the view and talk to God and it truly seems to make my day go smoother..

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boizmom
Jun. 2, 2008 at 1:14 PM Sounds so much like my "Turning over a new leaf" post from last week.  A lot of the same personal goals! 

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JHjel...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 4:01 PM woot woot you go mama! What business is it of theirs if you have another. I think you need to make yourself feel better and not so stressed out first of all. Not to mention your young and have plenty of time to think about #3. I understand how you feel though like people completely ruling out you being able to have one more baby.

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