I have known that this day was coming since the New Year but I never thought that it would hurt this bad :( My fiance left today for the Military and it will be six long weeks until I get to see him again. My heart is in pieces and as I type I continue to cry. I am so freakin frustrated because I know I am stronger than this but everytime I think about him I can't doing anything but cry. He wont be leaving the state until tomorrow but it already feels like he is a million miles away. All I want to do is kiss him and lay in his arms but right know its seems like mission impossible. I feel so dumb because we had the biggest argument last night and I wish I could just get our time back so I could feel his touch. I just feel so lost right now. Before he left I was so confident that I could do this with no problem but now I dont know how I am going to make it through the week. I seriously just wish that I could stop crying for about five minutes so my puffy eyes and this headache can go away. It was so sad when I went to drop him off. Every five seconds  I was breaking down and when we finally got to the recruiters office my son started calling his name over and over and over ( Thanks a lot Ju Ju you really hit a soft spot) and right there I just lost and really just wanted to tell him that I did not want him to go but that would have been too selfish. So I eventuallly got myself together and sucked it up and watch the love of my life walk away~sigh~ :( So Once AgainToday really SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!....I just need to do something to take my mind off of this whole shitty situation. :( Maybe a six week nap will do the trick!!!!

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Jun. 2, 2008 at 6:09 PM Whatever u do,make sure u make up before he leaves. U will hate yourself if u don't.

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Jun. 3, 2008 at 9:17 PM I'm sorry to hear that your going through that........I cant imagine how hard that must be. Hang in there girl!

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