We lost our little boy.  I was 20 weeks 4 days pregnant when our little boy had to have a blood transfusion.  IT seemed to have worked but had my ultrasound today and he had no heartbeat.  I am beyond devestated and don't know where to turn.  I feel embarrassed that I couldn't keep him safe and don't even know what to do with myself.  My husband has been wonderful and my children are dealing how they know best. 

I am just so sad that I have a headache from crying so much.

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joanl...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 7:46 PM I have no idea how you feel, but I am sorry for your loss.  Remember it was not your fault and I hope you can continue to find support.  One day, one breath at a time.

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LilMs...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 7:46 PM Im so sorry you had to go through that. This was not in your hands. If there was anything you could have done you know you would have done it as does everyone else. Im sorry for your loss.

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gusti...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 7:51 PM oh honey i am so sorry for your loss

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white...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 7:55 PM I'm am very sorry for your loss.  Please believe you did nothing wrong!

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SLGIRL
Jun. 2, 2008 at 8:31 PM

Im so sorry for your loss.  You did all you could to protect your baby.  Hugs to you & your family.

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Jessy...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 8:45 PM Honey I'm so sorry...I can't begin to imagine what you're going through but my prayers are with you and your family!

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luv_m...
Jun. 2, 2008 at 10:52 PM I am so sorry for your loss!  You did everything you could to protect your baby.  My prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

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chezk...
Jun. 3, 2008 at 12:06 AM First, breathe.  Yo'ure a good Mommy and you did everything you could because you love your son.  Repeat this to yourself over and over.  Trust me, I know.  My youngest daughter, Karis, was stillborn at 33 weeks on Nov. 7.  Losing a child is the most devistating thing a parent can go through.  All the self blame and anger and sadness and whys going through your mind.  There is help here - I have personally met some wonderful women on CafeMom thru a couple of the groups that you might look into:  Mom to Stillborn Baby :( and Lost Babies.  I've also joined some other groups specific to my situation (just do a group search for stillbirth or losing a child) and I'm telling you - these women will help you get through this difficult time.  We've been where you are and know what you're going through - we understand.  I've come to really love these women and I'm eternally grateful to them for getting me through these last 7 months.  I'm so sorry for your loss.  May God comfort you and your family during this very sad time.  You're in my prayers.

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Rebec...
Jun. 3, 2008 at 1:25 AM sorry for your loss!

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truth...
Jun. 3, 2008 at 10:50 AM I'm so sorry for your loss.

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