Leaving the house at 10pm tonight, I could tell that my husband was a little worried. He most likely had scandalous visions of me meeting some handsome guy in a dark alley, passionately embracing one another and then reluctantly saying our goodbyes until the next rendez vous. Although perhaps an exciting fantasy, my plans were to simply go to the 24 hour Starbucks and clear my mind.Being a mom and a wife day in and day out, I feverishly scrub dirty kitchen floors and lovely scrub baby bottoms. I listen to my husband complain about work patiently and caringly. I make sure dinner's on the table at a timely hour and run around town to keep my real estate business afloat. At the end of the day I'm satisfied. I don't have too much to complain about and even if I did, nothing much would likely come of it.But, tonight driving to the coffee shop, a wave of guilt washed over me. How could I abandon my family, especially at such a late hour? Where did a woman in my situation get off leaving her home in the middle of the night? Was I losing it? Walking into Starbucks I noticed that the joint was really popping. There were tables full of women; wives and mothers enjoying good coffee and good conversation with each other. Topics included midnight feedings, uninspired relationships and long lost single hood. I felt right at home. One decaf ice tea later I realized that I need to do this more often. Those 45 minutes of being completely relaxed and worry free gave me a little bit of my spontaneous livelihood back. I felt free and in control of my life. I relived the days when going to the coffee shop in the middle of the night was common practice and somewhat mundane due to its repetitiveness and familiarity.

Walking in the door, my husband's eyes were still glued to the TV. My short lived guilt was unfounded, as my absence went unnoticed. Who knew that my long lost liberty was waiting for me in an unplanned decaf iced tea

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Jun. 3, 2008 at 11:55 AM I can relate.  Next time you go, call me first and I'll meet you there.  We can sit around, chat about the day, exchange ideas and generally relax.  Glad you escaped for a brief but glorifying time! 

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Jun. 3, 2008 at 2:31 PM Call me too!  I'll meet ya there. 

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Jun. 4, 2008 at 1:23 PM you know i would love to get ourt of the house anytime you want to go again. that is why i think a mno is so important. not to just get out of the house to have fun with other moms but to clear our heads and come back a better mommy and wife. We should meet once a week so that we can enjoy some time as women, not just mommies.

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Jun. 6, 2008 at 6:51 AM

brilliantly wrote....

no need for guilt or worries....enjoy your moment of peace.

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